Tag Archive: sleep

up all night witchGood morning my darklings.  It is dark out there too.  It was really dark when I woke up at 1am.  By 1:30 I’d given up of going back to sleep.  You know the feeling you get when you want to sleep but your body says, “Nuh uh.  You’re up for good now, Kiddo.”  That’s what I got.

So now at almost 6, I’ve watched a horror movie, read, written a couple of pages, washed dishes and done two loads of laundry.  That should be enough for the whole day, right?  Yeah, I know there’s cleaning to be done but I’m taking a nap sometime today.  I’m cutting myself off the coffee after this pot and have a nice Xanax later.  I’m sure the non-sleeping extra anxiety will kick in eventually anyway. 😛

Okay, I’ll fess up and in between these paragraphs, I read until I fell asleep for a little but I learned my lesson.  The half hour my brain decided to shut down had me running late to get my oldest daughter ready for her school bus.  I had her done early though so I have to give myself a pat on the back for that one.  Lesson learned. 🙂  This cancels the afternoon nap though.  But that will give me more time to write.  And do laundry. 😉



Even I Should Set Up a Schedule

hanging moonGood very early morning my darklings and gothlings.  I believe I’m working my way to becoming more and more nocturnal.  This will mean extra sleepiness during the day since I live with and am responsible for day dwellers but I can’t help who I am.  3 am comes and my internal clock goes off.  So before me sits a fresh pack of cigarettes, a fresh cup of coffee creamed and sweetened to the extreme and below me the washer and dryer are doing their things.  The moon hasn’t set and the stars are still sparkling.  There’s no hint of the sun stretching up into the sky in the east.

Instead of wasting this time trying to go back to sleep, I’ve decided to use it.  I’m awake and I’ve already complained about how bad TV can be at this time in the morning.  Plus, this will give me uninterrupted writing time in between loads of laundry or straightening up.  At least straightening as much as I can while everyone’s asleep. 🙂

But I’ve come to accept this routine since there seems no changing it.  I just have to change my schedule.  Yes my husband still has to go to work and the kids still have to get ready for school but there are hours of the morning ticking away while I was spending time waiting for the day to start.  Now I can write my blog, get some of the mundane things done and write on the new book.  Then the morning rush will come but after that, I’m alone with the dogs.  The puppy, by the way, has taken to lying at my feet while I write and it’s über cute.  Anyway, I can finish up the things I started that couldn’t be finished because of the sleepers and maybe then catch a little nap to make up for what I’m missing at night now.  Then I can get up and work on my other book before it’s time to gather kids from school, do homework and the dinner thing.

I believe this may be the key to making things work.  This morning, or maybe what’s left of the week, will be a trial run to see if this is a plausible idea.  So wish me luck please because if I have to go back to measuring time in episodes of Three’s Company, I may lose what’s left of my mind. lol

waitingGood morning darklings.  Yes, it’s still dark outside and if I could be close to normal even with sleeping, that’s what I would be doing instead of writing a blog and brewing the day’s first pot of coffee at 4:30 am.  I also wouldn’t have had the guy that was working on my mother’s house come up to me and ask me if I knew how to cleanse a crystal yesterday out of the blue either.  Do I know how?  I can think of four off the top of my head right now.  Obviously he didn’t have much knowledge into witch craft or he would have also asked how to charge the crystal afterwards as well, but his intent should be enough to get it going and he didn’t share, so I just answered his questions.  But I digress.

I’m awake and I think it’s in large portion that I have a new idea and no amount of promises to myself to finish this WIP will let this new idea settle in my head and wait its turn.  I’ve got to start writing it.  I don’t want to lose the idea anyway but once again I’ll have my mind split between to stories.  Sometimes writing is like love, you never know when it’s going to show up in your life and when something good comes along you’ve got to grab it, hold on and see it through.  So that’s what I’ll do for both stories now.  Again.

I’m still in the blissful, hopeful stage for this one.  Even as I sit here writing this ideas are coming together, piece working themselves into the beginning and into the plot.  Even as my eyes are burning because there was not enough sleep last night, the story won’t let me go back.  So I’ve got a cup of coffee in front of me, a fresh pack of cigarettes for chain-smoking and my puppy sleeping in his bed next to where I write.  None of these things say, “Go catch a few more hours Krista.”  They say, “Finish up this blog and get started on the new book.”  All reading will come to an almost hault until I reach the point that I can relax in the story.

But really, I guess, I’m grateful.  There’s nothing worse than a writer who can’t write.  An imagination crippled is a great disability for art and somehow mine has healed itself for the time being.  So now it’s off to write before everyone wakes up and the story slides to the back of my mind where it might never be seen again.  Wish me luck that it looks and reads as good on the computer as the pictures do in my head. 🙂

xanax fairyGood morning my lovely/handsome darklings.  This is actually a good morning.  Sleep involved itself with me last night thanks in part being able to relax to a refilled prescription of Xanax.  I’m a high strung kind of girl and sometimes witch craft isn’t the cure for what ails you.  Occasionally a doctor has to be involved to get you through something.  None of the praying or spells or mixtures of herbs I had tried alleviated my anwiety.  Maybe it’s a falter in my ability, maybe it’s just the way it is but to be able to relax and sleep, I’ll take that little oval pill.  This morning I feel like I can get things done, the mundane house work, the writing and the witch craft.  Rest is an amazing thing.  Don’t get me wrong.  I still love the night and bright sunlight still hurts my eyes, but the rest of my family are normal day time functioning people and I have to cut my time between their time and my own.  The sleepless puffiness around my eyes may even be reduced enough for some make-up today so I can look human.  Yay!  Granted it will be a gothy human but if you know and love me, you must love my gothy weirdness. 🙂

Plus it’s Friday.  Love spell day and we know I love my love spells.  Maybe I’ll just take it easy today with a simple Sweet Thoughts spell to get back in the groove of things.

As far as writing goes today, I’ll be happy with a couple of pages, also to get back into the groove of that.  I need to reaquaint myself with my characters, get back into their heads and feel them and what they feel so I can tell the story properly instead of stubbornly pushing it forward.  I’m looking for that feeling every writer gets when the story flows right.  When the words just seem to come to you and pour out through your fingertips and onto the screen and you just know it’s good.

If I can manage that I’ll know things are getting better and it will have been a good day.  So I wish all of us a good Friday, full of love and creation of whatever sort you do.  It’s all magic.

A Little Bit Crazy

crazy angelGood Morning gothlings.  It’s been another night of waking up at 1am and when you add that to all the other nights that aren’t quite that bad, but still not normal, I think I’m starting to go a little bit crazy.  Or crazier than usual. 🙂  Take it from me, you need to sleep.  I mean, I assume so.  It seems very nice, those brief, dark escapes from reality where nothing in the world matters.

I read a study once where two group of normally sleeping people participated.  One group was allowed to sleep like they always did but the other group was woken up just before the entered R.E.M. sleep.  There were no behavioral changes in the first group but the second group began to get very irritable.  And the longer they went with out the worse it got.  Some experienced hallucinations.  Some became overly emotional about everything.  The study concluded that humans don’t just enter R.E.M., where the subconscious mind takes over and we begin to dream, isn’t just a thing that happens while we sleep but a necessary part of sleep or we will go insane.  That’s the time when we really rest.  That’s the time I’d really like.  I don’t need any help getting on the crazy train. lol

There’s even superstitions all over the world about sleeping, like the first one to go to sleep on the Bridal night will be the first one in the relationship to die.  Which direction your bed faces makes a difference.  One direction will make you live longer, another means you’ll travel.  Scientists have even studied this and say that a bed facing a Southerly position provides the best sleep though they don’t know why.

Maybe, by witchy standards, it has to do with balance.  You’re laying pointing North and South, like the saying, “As above, so below.”  Or maybe it’s a scientific thing, sleeping between the magnetic poles of the earth.  I don’t know.  I’m writing the ramble of the sleepless and borderline bat crazy. lol  I think I’ll be rearranging furniture for a while to see if it works.  I’ll let you know.



sleepy fairyGood morning my gothlings.  I hope you had a good night’s rest or were prepared to spend the night awake as we so often are.  I did neither.  I actually have to stay awake all day with no prep naps for an all-nighter and I got about three hours of sleep.  So now I’m sleepy, guzzling coffee and it’s just not cutting it.

One kid was up and decided to wake up the others.  She’s gone back to bed but I’m not that lucky.  There’s always things to do before I can settle down to write at least something and if I went to sleep now who knows when I’d wake up?  Not to mention I’d  have a 9 and 5-year-old running around the house unattended.  I’m not sure but that might be illegal.  I’m not into that.  Well, not into getting caught. lol  You can see grumpy hasn’t kicked in yet.

I’ve got to keep grumpy stored up for a little while.  I’m in a happy point in the story but you know something bad has to happen when next so I’ll try to focus the grumpy that will inevitably develop into that.

How sad is it that I’m planning my third, yes third, night of sleep deprivation emotional state around how I’m going to WIP?  I guess it’s better than being mean to everybody. 🙂

I may have to start doping the 8-year-old.  Just kidding.  Maybe.  Her doctor actually said if this doesn’t stop I could try giving her Benadryl of some melatonin.  I haven’t done because I feel bad dosing her to make her sleep but on the other hand I can’t stay up forever and neither can she.  I’ll let her sleep in today but by tonight I think I’ll have made a decision.  The question would be how to get her to take it.  I wonder if Benadryl has those dissolving strips.  It may be time for a trip to the pharmacy and a talk with the pharmacist whether I like it or not.  I’m sure I’ll get over the guilt when I can go to sleep and stay that way all night. 🙂